Anything, not Everything

A seemingly small trick I learned recently from Lysa TerKeurst has shed some new light on an old favorite script, Philippians 4:13. It’s called 10 fingers and it goes like this: I. Can. Do. All. Things. Through. Christ. Who. Strengthens. Me.  (Don’t forget to count with your fingers!)

It’s a little like counting to 10 when you feel like you’re about to overreact about something silly in the heat of the moment. When I feel suddenly overwhelmed with stress, worry, doubt, fear…I simply count to 10 and remind myself of how awesome my God is!

It’s an amazing sense of peace that comes when you take a moment to remember how big God is and that literally ANYHTING is possible with Him. It’s also humbling to recognize that outside Him nothing of value is possible.

But I’ve come to realize that just because God can accomplish anything, things we cant even imagine, in and through us by His strength, that doesn’t mean I need to go out and attempt to conquer EVERYTHING I can get my hands on. Just because God can make something happen doesn’t mean He will. That thing, goal, dream, task might not be for us. If I’ve learned anything in 24 years it’s this: if it’s not in God’s will for my life it ain’t gonna happen.

So I’m trying to learn to live in the moment God has for me right now and stop constantly striving towards the future. I don’t want to miss the present! I know God has me right where I am for a reason, a purpose. It might not be what I envisioned, but I certainly don’t know best. God does! He designed me and He wrote my story. He knows how it ends and all the stops in between. And He pulled me out of eternity and placed here for such a time as this. I may not know what my future holds or even what tomorrow holds, but I know Who holds me. Sometimes I just need to remind myself, God’s got this. I don’t need to have it all figured out because He already knows what’s ahead and the reasons for what’s behind.

I am challenging myself to keep my eyes open and my heart ready. To be obedient to what God is placing on my heart right now. To take the next little step of faith. To stay in his Word and let the light of his Truth guide me towards the destiny He has for me.

This year I want to read more than I’ve ever read. I want to DO something. I want to take steps of faith. I want to trust God. I want to decrease and I want Him increase. I want to give him the things I’ve been holding onto so tightly. I want to let go in full surrender. I want to be obedient where I am. I want to give more and worry less.

I want to let God do His thing and stop trying to force my thing.


Sister, Sister ~ Singapore Edition

A Summer in Singapore   

All birds have to leave the nest sometime, right?  I thought I had taken flight when I left my sleepy, one horse town for the lights and Starbucks of West Palm Beach, but college was merely a baby step toward the edge – I hadn’t jumped quite yet.  There was a whole world out there and I had no clue.  I hadn’t even scratched the surface.

I still remember the conversation with my sister, Leslie, that started it all.  It was the beginning of my junior year of college.  I was surprised to hear from her that night.  We didn’t get to talk much because she and her family had moved to Singapore a few years ago and a 13-hour time difference made it difficult to catch each other on the phone.  We talked about my summer, my (previous) internship, and how much we missed each other.  The combination of those three topics is where our fantasy began.  “What if you could get an internship here, in Singapore?” she said – almost in a whisper.  Of course, the lights started going off in my head like a fireworks show before she could even finish her thought.  2010 hadn’t exactly been a hallmark of years for me – I was recently single and completely focused on school, volleyball, and my future (hopefully awesome) career. So, what did I have to lose?

The thought of interning in Singapore consumed my thoughts over the next few days and I was certain that I had begun my slow decent to crazy town.  What the hell would my parents say?  I tried not to dampen my excitement with such twaddle.

We emailed back and forth, part small talk like normal and the other part we spent watering the seed of crazy we had both planted in our brains.  I held my breath with every new email I received from her.  I kept my phone by my pillow at night in case she emailed at a weird hour.  Finally, at 9:30 on a Tuesday morning, I received the email I had been waiting for.  She had discovered an internship opportunity at a place called TWG Tea Company.  A little Googling later and I realized that I had drastically underestimated my sister’s sphere of influence. Since when was she friends with the Co-Founders of internationally renowned companies??  I digress. We agreed to keep our mission hush-hush for the time being.

Over the next week or so I spent every second of free time I had in my advisor’s office writing and rewriting my resume and cover letter.  It was impossible to focus on anything else.  Any thoughts of reality, like, oh I don’t know, moving to Singapore for an entire summer and somehow breaking that news to my parents, tied my stomach into knots.  I tried to suppress those.


Dream Board & Beyond


I made my first dream board this past January in the beginning stages of what I have come to fondly regard as my quarter-life crisis. And I can confidently say that I am a HUGE fan of this inspirational tool. True to form, I have to admit I went a little bit overboard, but I can’t help it! I have a strange obsession with the aesthetics of magazine clippings, pensive quotes, and artfully crafted copy that resonate with me and my life. I admire the beauty of the truths that words can speak to the heart because my past has made me mindful of the inverse.  Words can be a destructive force against the spirit, too. The Bible gently reminds us of the raw power of the words we choose to use many times over, but my favorite version of this truth is found in Proverbs 18:21, “Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits.”

Power of death and life. 

Wow. It never fails to amaze and humble me that the Bible can use one sentence, one verse, to profoundly impact our perspective. Are my words a gift of life to others in my day or a kiss of death? Do I succumb to my emotions in the heat of my trivial frustrations or do I exemplify self-discipline and choose my words more wisely? Am I willing to pause to ask God for His grace and wisdom before I react on impulse?

Am I a slave to my emotions or do I live in the freedom of God’s promises?

As I look across my room at my dream board perched atop my bookshelf, a particular quote jumps out at me: “Being uniquely you is truly your one obligation on the planet.”

Ladies, we are the Queens of Comparison. The Debbie Doubters. It would seem sometimes we are the cheerleaders of our fears. Why? Why do we willingly submit ourselves to such torture? Because somewhere along the way lies from others, or even ourselves, made their way into our hearts and set up camp. I can’t. I’m not smart enough. I’m not talented enough. I’m not tall enough. I don’t measure up. I’m only mediocre. I’m not like her.


Here is all you need to know. 1) You are enough because God says you are and God is never wrong. 2) You don’t have to be like anyone else because God made you exactly the way you are for a specific purpose only you can fulfill. No one else can fulfill your God-given destiny, so why on earth would you want to live out someone else’s when yours is designed by God exactly, perfectly, precisely just for you and no one else!

Words can really affect us, can’t they? I think sometimes we discount the impact of what we allow to come out of our mouths and how we enable the words of others to have authority in our lives. Words are powerful and profound. To quote Holley Gerth, “Sticks and stones could break her bones, but it’s words that have broken her heart.

If you haven’t already, put Holley Gerth on your reading list. I read two of her books, You’re Already Amazing and its complement You’re Made for a God-Sized Dream, this summer when I moved home to be with my mom through her breast cancer treatment and it was like she was reaching through the pages to hold my hand and walk through the steps of faith I needed to be taking. Her books were absolutely instrumental in helping get to the place I am at today in my faith and in my life. And this praise is completely unsolicited BTW. Her words will move you in all the right directions.

It is easy to stumbled and become ensnared in the traps of the lies, doubts, and fears in our lives. So, why not establish some safe guards? After all, God tells us, “Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life.” I keep a list of truths in two places in my room, my closet and my bathroom, of who God says I am in Christ. I also have Joyce Meyer’s version of this list on my phone’s home screen. And I keep my dream board, which is covered in inspirational quotes, words, and images, where I can see it ever single day! I love to make “scripture keepers” with index card rings and I try to keep it with me in my purse wherever I go. I have two mason jars on my bookshelf, one for “Blessings” and one for “Prayers”, and I write little notes and drop them in the jar from time to time. Equip yourself with the Truth! Write them on your heart, on your bathroom mirror, on your wallets, on your desk, on your phones. Little notes of joy and truth and love, noteworthy, veering you off the self-destructive path that leads to nowhere.

“Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.”

Being uniquely you is truly your one obligation on the planet. Isn’t it true? Each of us called to run our race, the one marked out for us by our Creator. He plucked us out of eternity for our time such as this. Packs our bag with free will and a Divine Instruction Book and sends us on our way to a broken world to shine His light. To love – ourselves included.